Dec 272011
 

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Eeek! I quit my job.

It took 8 months of me coming home in tears to finally make the scary decision. I was miserable. They kept moving me down but promoting men. It was messed up.

It’s sad. I left after working with a brand new partner that I actually really enjoyed. My kids were finally starting to behave and learn.

It was sad to leave so many wonderful friends. They were all with me at the funeral and those months that I was barely breathing, trying to stay afloat.

It’s sad because I put so much into building the recreation program there. 7 years, 9 months and a day of building their recreational therapy program from dodge-ball with 30 kids in a gym screaming and fighting, to actual meaningful, therapeutic activities.

It’s sad because Brittany just started working there, too. It was so fun to see my sister at work, even if it was just in passing.

But it had to be done. Someone had to take stand. I am blessed that I can.

It’s scary not having a job or even one lined up. But I have Faith. Something will turn up. He’s been faithful before, He’ll be faithful again.

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 Posted by at 1:05 pm
Dec 262011
 

Sometimes I like to read old posts from the past to remind me where I was before and where I am now. It makes me very grateful, but also a bit wistful. I read this blog post and this one and wanted to answer that broken hearted ME on Christmas. I asked…

Will I ever feel joy again, will I ever put up lights again, go to church without screaming inside, listen to Christmas music?

Yes, yes Erica you will.

The healing will take a while. It will hurt. Excruciating. Aching. You will feel like it will never end. I cried when a friend told me

the best is yet to come”.

This was the 4th Christmas without HeeJun. He was thought of and remembered.

Honestly though, I remembered what hell I went through, and the hell I put my family and friends through those 1st few years without HeeJun. I was grateful and astonished by Christ’s amazing faithfulness and strength to bring me here. To this new, wonderful life. A new Normal. So different.

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Darcie really wanted pancakes!

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IMG_2138Cornhole boards!

IMG_2149 Surprise gift for my parents! A TV!!!

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Janel MADE this picnic table for us! I was so surprised!

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Apparently, we had a theme this year with presents. Kitchen supplies and books.

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 Posted by at 2:39 pm