Sometimes I like to read old posts from the past to remind me where I was before and where I am now. It makes me very grateful, but also a bit wistful. I read this blog post and this one and wanted to answer that broken hearted ME on Christmas. I asked…

Will I ever feel joy again, will I ever put up lights again, go to church without screaming inside, listen to Christmas music?

Yes, yes Erica you will.

The healing will take a while. It will hurt. Excruciating. Aching. You will feel like it will never end. I cried when a friend told me

“the best is yet to come”.

This was the 4th Christmas without HeeJun. He was thought of and remembered.

Honestly though, I remembered what hell I went through, and the hell I put my family and friends through those 1st few years without HeeJun. I was grateful and astonished by Christ’s amazing faithfulness and strength to bring me here. To this new, wonderful life. A new Normal. So different.

Darcie really wanted pancakes!

 

Cornhole boards!

Surprise gift for my parents! A TV!!!

Janel MADE this picnic table for us! I was so surprised!

 

Apparently, we had a theme this year with presents. Kitchen supplies and books.