I had a little pity party this week. I fell in love with this adorable cocker spaniel/ golden retriever mix from a local rescue league. The rescued her from a pretty filthy and neglectful environment. I met the foster mom and heard only good things about the pup. I was in the market for a calm, submissive, friendly, and cuddly dog. I also really want a dog that I can register to be a therapy dog for my students. Juneau has some major anxiety issues, but does so much better with another dog around that can help him. Juneau is my big special needs pup. He’s got issues! So when I found this little girl, I thought she would be a perfect addition to the household. Then, I find out she has worms and heart worms. Nothing’s easy, right? After lots of debating and research, I decided to foster her for a weekend to see how things would work out. She was perfect in the home. Perfect with Juneau, perfect with me. Cuddly and sweet. Just what I need. Then she got sick. Really sick. All over my house. Refusing to eat. I drove to her vet an hour away. As I was sitting in the vet’s office, I started thinking “why can’t anything be easy for me, Lord?!” I have been praying about getting a dog for a while, praying that He would make it very clear what I needed to do. I know I couldn’t make any decisions right now, so I needed a clear answer. With trust issues with Hi, it was almost like I was testing Him. Ok, Lord. I ‘ll try to test Your trustworthiness with this one little thing. But if you mess up…I know, so wrong. But it was how I was feeling at the time.
I started getting pretty mad and upset that nothing seemed easy for me. I mean, for real!? I have been praying for only two things lately; dog or no dog, and to find a church home for me (that’s another post for another pity party). You would think He could make those two things easy for me, right? I started to tear up in the vet’s office. pity party. I was so mad. I wanted to scream, “HEY! I already am having difficulty trusting You right now. Everything seems to point in the direction to not trust You. Why can’t You make one thing easy?!” Then, I tried to remember His promises and what He has already done for me. I tried to remember that maybe He has a plan worked out for this dog, for me, for everything. I was having a whole conversation in my head. “He never lets things be easy for me. But, He knows I can handle this pup. Look at how He has provided for me this year. Provided me with friends and family to help me. Provided me with support and a working environment that understands. Provided me with his grace and mercy while I trudge through this ridiculous journey”. But, God….wahhhhh. (somebody call the wahh-mbulance!)
I LOVE your adorable, new furbaby!!!!
And, her overbite is PRECIOUS! One of my dogs has an underbite that cracks me up. 🙂
Animals make everything better.
Truly.
ah, it was meant to be! i'm thrilled that it's working out. seriously, she is just love in a golden, furry body. what a blessing you will be to each other!!! wooooooooo!
Those pictures are priceless!!