Feb 212011
One of the biggest regrets or lessons I learned after HeeJun died was that most things I stressed over were unimportant. Dishes weren’t done? Who cares! House wasn’t painted? Oh well. There are more important things in life. I wish I had known that when HeeJun was alive. I wish I had spent more time enjoying our life together.
So, now Chad and I are house hunting. AND of course, I start stressing out about paint colors and trim.I caught myself before I got out of hand. Have I learned nothing? What is it going to take, Erica! I could live in a shack with this man and be happy. I caught myself and realized all that stuff is temporary and unimportant. I need to just BE STILL and enjoy Chad and dwell in the joy Christ has given me.
What a great reminder to enjoy sharing life with those we love instead of stressing over it. I know after Meredith died I made a point to kiss Steven goodbye every morning, no matter what time it was, because I was afraid it would be the last time I kissed him. I quit doing that since the twins were born. I’ve gotta start that again.
I can totally relate to this … It was through all of your wisdom on your blog and your journey of losing Heejun that I realized what kind of wife I wanted to be and that I would never sweat the small stuff… nothing seems that important.