Major props to Chad. Putting up with me as a bride and as a widow earns him some major kudos.
When I first realized Chad had an interest in me, I was hesitant. I kept telling him and his friends that I was a mess. I warned him. One of his friends told me, “If anyone can handle your mess, Chad can.” They were so right.
Planning a wedding is fun and wonderful. But it also brings up lots of emotions of missing HeeJun, remembering HeeJun, and identity crises. I’m in love again, yet I still hurt.
The other day, I was hurting bad. I just couldn’t stop crying. What a wonderful thing to be able to lean on my fiancee and be held while my tears soaked his shirt.
Some bride’s think constantly about their dress or the reception site. Yesterday, Chad and I discussed where I will be buried and if it was appropriate to place a plaque with my name on HeeJun’s grave. Good times.
This guy is amazing.
I have never met him, but I love this man God has brought into your life. What a wonderful support and encouragement you have!
As a remarried widow, I feel confident in saying that this is a sure sign you have chosen the right man. Joy and grief can and do coexist. If you honor the grief it won’t drown out the joy. Wishing you much joy.
I love Chad too and I’ve never met him. Thank you for sharing that the two (grief and joy) can coexist. I think as a surviving sibling, I didn’t think it could exist and just assumed that my brother-in-law was totally over my sister when she passed. You’ve helped me open my eyes to the pain he probably endured (and probably still does at times).