Life Sustainer IV

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Jul 102010
 

Family.

I remember Mom worried about me shaking on the couch on that day.

I remember waking up and crying the day after. Mom and Brittany held me while I sobbed.

I remember Dad telling me stories of a hawk and a dog while I laid in bed trying to find my footing in the world. He kept me grounded.

I remember Dad making files upon files and helping me call every stupid company to figure out my life.

I remember Dad handing his credit card to the funeral director as the man asked me “and how are you going to pay for this”.

I remember driving back and forth from Raleigh to Charlotte every weekend with them.

I remember Mom helping me pick out Juneau, because I couldn’t make any decisions. Best dog ever!

They helped me gather my life together. They helped me sustain my life. They let me hurt, but also allowed me to laugh and play.

They were there for me the first few months. They are here for me now. As I am starting to “heal” and become a healthier and happier daughter and sister, they are still here for me, loving me, encouraging me, supporting me. Goodness, my sister even was brave enough to come move into this mess of my life!

I love them!!!!

I love them!!
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Life Sustainers Part Tres

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Jul 062010
 

Charlotte. Ah, Charlotte. How I love my Charlotte friends.
The Married Ladies Small group that surrounded me and supported me through all of this. I’ve written of how incredible they are before, and I can’t say it enough. They amaze me.

My work peeps. They get why I have to leave sometimes to go cry at a cemetary. They also let me laugh and distract me as much as I need.

My motorcycle gang. What, you didn’t know I was in a gang? Well, not really. But some of the riders who rode with HeeJun, some that didn’t even know him, but still care; they have adopted me into their family. And they are pretty fabulous. The matriarch of the family is even hosting a Memorial Event for HeeJun.

Whose drinking soda? It’s me! The neighbors. Once they were just those crazy neighbors. Now they are wonderful friends.

I’m going to say it, and you may be shocked. I’m shocked that I’m about to say it. BUT I have been blessed.

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