Three years ago on Valentine’s Day, HeeJun and I had reservations at the Melting Pot. I remember coming home from work and seeing him on the phone pacing back and forth. Something was wrong. very wrong. Someone he loved was very, very sick. It’s the most scared I had ever seen him, and the most brave. We stayed up til 2am waiting for word. When we got word, we jumped in the car and drove to Raleigh at 2am. As we were getting into the car, he said, “there are no such thing as coincidences”. He had faith that God had a plan. We spent Valentine’s  night praying. He spent it pacing back and forth, worried, scared. I remember he got a nosebleed from being so upset.

That was our last Valentine’s Day together. We did go to the Melting Pot a few weeks later. I don’t recall it. In fact, I don’t really recall many of our valentine’s together. What I remember is what he said that night, his faith. I remember how scared he was. Stupid last Valentine’s together.

The first Valentine’s without HeeJun I went to Alabama, I think…Who knows.

Last year for Valentine’s I was flying home from visiting my sister in Alabama. I met the weird guy on the plane that talked about rockets the whole time. It was just me and him on the plane. It would have been a great love story, if he wasn’t such a weirdo. BUT he was my little sign from God that I was ready to date. My push from God. He showed me that I could do this flirting/ dating thing.

This Valentine’s day I’m engaged, about to be married in 7 weeks. Holy Mackerel! Wow! If you had told me three years ago, two years ago, last year that I would be here, I would have slapped you clear across to the next zip code!