Chillin' With Lemonade

Turkeys and cakes

Apr 302011

We honeymooned to Pine Cay, Turks and Caicos. It is a very secluded island. There are only a few houses on the island and one resort that only has 12 rooms. Everyone knows everyone and comes back year after year. We were almost like celebrities. The Newlyweds and the first timers! It is such a private place that people were shocked that we had found out about the resort online. They said it is usually only by word of mouth! It was a beautiful island, white beaches, bluest of blue water, the best snorkeling I have ever experienced and the most relaxing time.

Our first view of the island from the plane.

We were treated like celebrities. Our names welcomed us in the lobby.

Golf carts and bikes are the only mode of transportation on the island.

Sunset cruise!

Private dinner for two by candlight every night.

There are three K-9 Unit dogs on the island. We got to watch them train.

Note that we are the only ones for miles on the beach!

Why am I so excited…

Because it’s time for dessert! They fed us like kings and queens!

When happy posts happen to sad blogs

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Apr 292011

This blog started out as a way for me to honor HeeJun, let people know how I am doing and a way for me to get my emotions out. Most of the time after I posted I felt so much better. I was able to work out my emotions and not feel so alone. It was also a way for me to let others know what was going on without me having to talk. There’s alot of posts I kept private that were just of me cussing or complaining about the stupid people in my life who abandoned me. It was an excellent way for me to just write about HeeJun and it was also a bit humorous because before all this I didn’t even know how to start a blog! I really believe starting this blog was one of the most healing things I did for myself. It helped me be connected to so many others who were going through the same thing. It gave me a new blogging family. It also connected me to my friends and family and it helped me work out my own emotions.

This blog started so sad. I read the posts now and I am in awe that I made it through. I can remember that dreadful dark and heavy feeling. I can taste the grief in my words. The colors are HeeJun’s favorite colors. The pictures are of HeeJun.

Well, what do I do now? What does blog about grief become once joy returns? The grief will always be there. Just because joy has returned does not make “it all better”. We all know this. I want to continue writing so people know that. Maybe other widows will read this and be encouraged. Or maybe it will piss them off. I’m torn sometimes when posting. I don’t want people to read the joyful posts and think “yay! She’s all better” or to the contrary, “well, she just isn’t acknowledging her grief”. See, there I go again, worrying about what other people think of my grief. Haven’t I learned yet that it doesn’t matter what people think.

OK. So this blog is going to change. It pretty much has already, right? It’s a journey. It’s still going to be Chillin’ With Lemonade because the hope for my life is that I will one day be chilling with lemonade with my Savior.

But I might change the colors…PURPLE, anyone?

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