Erica

Dec 182009
 

This week I have felt so frustrated at people. Have we not learned anything from this? Have you already forgotten how fleeting life is? Have you already forgotten the pain and hurt? I want to scream at people complaining about their babies or their husbands! Complaining about having to shop for gifts. Complaining about kids being home for the holidays!!! I would give anything. Anything to be able to complain that my husband was hard to shop for, or that I had to clean the house for company, or that my kids were home for the holidays. Anything.

Sigh. I miss him.
On the other hand, I will most likely slap the next person who comes to me with a super happy smile saying how much they love Christmas. oh, the stupid malls and their stupid Christmas songs. Yes, I am in a better place than I was last year. Better, might be the wrong word. Last year I was barely floating along. This year I’ve got a little fight in me and everything tastes bitter and cynical.
So, no more complaining about trivial things and no more happiness. Here are things I will accept;
humor
friendship
hope
memories
a little dancing. Did you know they have a Just Dance Wii game?!!!

 Posted by at 8:46 pm
Dec 142009
 

Check out this beautiful song. “Oh, darling, I wish you were here.”

I had an intense day.

i addressed my (untrue) beliefs that my sin did this. That my disobedience to Christ’s pressing that I should stop being so deceitful did this. That God is a punisher and a disciplinarian. Shame, Shame, Shame.

I read a lot about forgiveness, and repentance, and allowing Christ to fill me with his grace, and integrity.

I have a lot of intense homework to do this week.

“Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again, from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. you will increase my honor and comfort me once again”- Psalm 71:10

 Posted by at 9:46 pm