May I vent for a moment?
My husband worked for the bank. I have done everything I thought needed to be done to inform the bank what happened. So why do I keep getting his atm card and statements addressed to him?
Why do I still get life insurance advertisements addressed to him? For irony?
And to add insult to aching hurt, did the IRS have to address their tax statement to HeeJun Kim, DEC’D?
HeeJun was never a practical joker. Although, he did love giving silly gag gifts at Christmas. But never a joker.
So, I wonder why when the troopers told me HeeJun had been in an accident and it was bad, I kept saying “this is a joke.” Kept screaming, “you’re joking“. I’m not one who usually thinks things are jokes. I wonder where that came from. Shock. Not being able to process it. Shock is a weird thing. I remember shaking uncontrollably and not being able to stand.
This came to my mind today for two reasons. I was reminded of the words we say during shock from a bereaved mother’s blog. Her screams of NO reminded me of my screams, prayers that it was all a joke. I found the little pink slip of paper the troopers used to identify my house and to remember what to tell me.
Burke Co.
Trooper Wakefield
Asian Male
Wife Erica
Taken to Grace Hospital