I used to scoff at people who posted New Year’s reflections. I never wanted to reflect on the horrible year behind me or think about another lonely year ahead.

Ah, but things have changed.

I hope you can’t read this without seeing God’s work in my life. I hope you can’t read this without realizing that without Him none of this would be possible. I would not be standing.

Joys

Marriage:

• I learned that my heart IS big enough. I learned how to move forward and to let go of my tight hold on my widow identity. Being a wife after being a widow is amazing. Everything is sweeter, brighter, softer, sexier.
• I learned that sleep talking/ walking makes for lots of laughter in the morning.
• I am still messy.

New House:

• Remodeling a kitchen/ bathroom makes for lots of take out orders! Chad has a great eye for design. Dude is incredibly handy with construction and recessed lighting! Ready to assemble rocking chairs does not mean it is easily assembled!
• 17 fruit trees may sound awesome, but they make a gigantic mess.

Work:

• Quitting my job this year has been a big Faith step for me this year. I am excited to see what God has in store. Nervous, anxious, terrified…but excited. I learned so much about myself and about others while at that job.
•  I can diagnose just about anyone now!
•  My co-worker/ friend’s last day was today. She told me she cried during her exit interview. I realized that I didn’t cry at all during my last week. I was happy, relieved. Knowing that reaffirmed that I made the right decision. I was soooooooo ready to get out of that place.
• I loved working with my sister.

Friendships:

• The brain is an amazing thing.  Brain injuries suuuuuuuck. I think I’m gonna put that on a t-shirt. Wishing you could make everything better, but knowing you can’t…hurts.
• I love S’mores around the campfire with friends.
• I love the thought of camping out in the backyard…but my back hates it the next day.
• Jumping in a Bounce House with my wedding dress on only makes sense to those who know me.

Hurdles and Obstacles

Doggie Drama: Moorea didn’t adjust very well to all these changes. Our littlest puppy is also the most vicious. Chad and I mastered the art of breaking up a Moorea/ Darcie fight. We are on a strict treatment plan to help her get back to normal. Keep them separated at all times!!

The In-Law Fiasco of 2011.