The Kims have been on my mind. I miss the old “Us” during the holidays. I wonder what they do, what they’re feeling. I have no idea what’s going on in their life and they have no idea what’s going on in mine.
It’s not supposed to be like this. I know widows who are so close to their late husband’s family, that they are truly like a daughter to them. Yet, it is probably for the best.
I can’t even remember the last time I really talked to them.
Oh, I remember the texts, though! And the text telling me not to contact them after I told her I was engaged. “I was taking their memories of HeeJun away”.
I wonder if the only thing that broke my relationship with the Kims is the money. I wonder if there was anything else I could have done. More cards? More visits? I wonder what more they needed from me (a grieving widow)…other than $25,000. Was it just too hard to be around me? I’ll never know.
Honestly, I’m okay with that.
This song reminds me of them and my relationship to the Larters, to Chad.
Near to them, I am better. (Way, way, way better!)
Hugs from afar.